2018, I am so happy to see you gone.

Yesterdays NYE celebrations.

Yesterdays NYE celebrations.

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So now 2019 is here. I would almost say: Finally! This year have been a tough one for me. I think it has been my loneliest year so far. Being in a place where I did not understand anything. I don’t even know why I have let myself be stomped on by people as I have. Its been hard but I have learned so much at the same time. I have learned that I need to stand up for myself, that I can and will say no. That I am good enough. I have given too much of myself and this year will be all about me. I don’t mean in an egoistic way, but I am not gonna bend over backwards for people that won’t even recognise what I'm are trying to do for them. I would like to think that I am an understanding person with patience that I don't even myself understand. But people have been using that against me. I thought I was helping but I have now realised that I have only hurt myself by doing that. This year and forward I will give my attention and love to the people that deserve it.

I am also gonna take care of my health. Go back to my diet and continue going to the gym. I will try new things, I will do things that make me happy. I will learn new things and focus on my personal growth. I will challenge myself and leave my comfort zone. I am not healed yet from what happen last year. I don’t trust people like I once did. Which is in one way sad, but maybe also good. Maybe I was so naive before and now I only have grown to be careful?

I have also lost my ambition. I tried so hard to keep it up whilst I had so many other things that were constantly keeping me down. I have been in a place I despise and I didn’t really have a place to call home for a whole year. I did not have any personal space and that wears you down. To feel unsafe in the place you are supposed to call "home".

For a whole year, I put my own life aside to go somewhere where I could not even be with the person I gave it all up for. Instead, I was staying somewhere unstable where I never knew what was going to happen next or who was even there. And I just let it be like that. But, should I just blame myself for what others did? I don’t know. I guess that is something I need to think about a long while before I'll understand it.

Anyway… This last months of this year have been very crazy, lots are happening at work and in my personal life at the same time I am trying to heal, but I have also made some very happy and bright memories. I am closer to my sisters that I have ever been. I have a realised that I have very very good friends. And I have moved back to the place I call home. I now walk down the streets of London smiling. This will be a year of hard work and a lot of effort. And I will do it all for me and the people I love and that truly and fully loves me back ❤️

Thank you 2018 for all the lessons you taught me, but I am so happy to see you gone.

Hardcore cycling

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I did it! I got to the gym at 11:00 today and completed the “Hardcore cycling“, whoop whoop! I though I was going to throw up during it though, haha!

I just had not been drinking any water the night before, so I was already dehydrated before I even left for gym. I got my water bottle with me during the spinning but it was not even nearly enough. Then I went to the steaming room and had a hot shower. So now I am finally drinking some water. 😅

After the gym I popt in to work to see if my dress had been delivered, but nooo… So I don’t know what I am gonna do for a NYE outfit if it does not come tomorrow 😩 I am gonna have a look in my wardrobe and see what I can find. I have a few dresses I have never used before.

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I ordered this two dresses. The silver dress was going to be my NYE dress but we will see now. The other dress I just fell in love with and it was kinda cheap, so I got that one too, haha.

A post full of random.

A picture I took of Burlington Arcade.

A picture I took of Burlington Arcade.


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Here is some pictures of my half done room. I still have paintings to hang and buy more decoration and so on, but I decided to share some pictures anyways.


Hello hello everybody.

I felt so sick this morning that I needed to come in later to work 😅

I thought I was going to be sick at the train, which would have been extremely embarrassing, so I decided to wait until I felt good enough to come in. Which I eventually did. Then I got to the train and sat down I noticed that someone had actually spewed in the train. Haha! Poor thing. 😅 And it was a lill bit disgusting 🤢

As I did not feel great yesterday either, I decided to go to bed early, and I really did it! I think I was sleeping at like 21:30 which is like a record since I came here. I slept 8 hours 😍 So I actually woke up feeling energetic. But after I had breakfast I felt sick, I think it was my supplements that made me feel sick. I eat a lot in one go. I will start to take half in the morning and a half in the night.

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I just thought about something today, which I think I also wrote about recently, but I am so happy and grateful for my friends and family. I really, really am. I think about it often, how god damn lucky I am. I definitely feel very very blessed! 🥰 ♥️ Thank you guys for being you! ♥️


Getting a cold

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Hiya! My god... I'm catching a cold. I had the feeling that I was going to get sick yesterday when I was out Christmas shopping. My eyes were so sensitive to the light and I only wanted to stay inside. This morning I felt fine. But when I got to work my energy level just fell low. I’m gonna go for a session in the sauna after work and then straight to sleep. Hopefully, I will be all fine tomorrow.

I should have understood that I didn’t feel my best when I got to work and noticed that I had my “trash shoes” on me. I only wear these sneakers at home, haha. I also got to work still wearing my knitted socks!

I had a lovely weekend though. On Friday I was out with Chloe and her workmates in Kings cross. Came home late and missed my tube stop as I fell asleep. Whoops! Haha

I needed to walk from Turpark lane back home. Which is like a 15 min walk… it's not super far, but its never nice to walk alone at 3 am.

On Saturday Josh and Chloe came to my place as we first decided to have a night in, but changed our mind and went to a cool burger place close to mine. They have board games too. Defiantly coming back!

Heart of the Ocean

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Igår hade vi äran att få se några renar och en lite älg på väg till min morbrors stuga. Så söta! Jag vill verkligen gå ut ur bilden och ta några bättre bilder, men dom sprang iväg innan jag ens fick en chans. 

Men det var underbart att få se dom. Jag har liksom sett dom hela mina uppväxt men jag blir alltid lika glad av att se dom. 


Yesterday we had a privilege to see reindeers and one baby moose on the way to my uncles cottage. So cute! I wanted to go out of the car and take some pictures but the always ran away before I even had the chance. 

But it was amazing to see them. I have seen them around my entire childhood but I always feel the same happiness everytime I see them.

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Min morbrors stuga var egentligen mormor och morfars stuga från början. Jag spenderade mycket tid här med dom när jag var ett litet flickebarn. Det var här som mormor lärde mig att fiska.

Innan dom gick bort så fick min morbror ärva stugan och vi fick ärva deras hus. Och det är i det huset som vi idag bor i. 


My uncle's cottage was originally my grandparents. I have spent a lot of time here with my grandparent when I was a kiddo. It was here my grandmother taught me how to fish.

Before they passed away this place were given to my uncle and we got to take over their house. That is the house we currently are living in.

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Varje gång vi systrar umgås så blir vi direkt barn igen, haha! Leker nere på stranden 😂Vem gör ens det i vår ålder? 


When we sisters are around each other we become kids again. haha! Playing down on the beach 😂Who even does that in our age? 

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Finaste ❤️/ most precious ❤️

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Fast än mina systrar inte fiskar själva så är dom alltid ett bra sällskap. Dom gör fisket lite mindre fridfullt men mycket roligare. 


Even if my sister does not like fishing like me, they are great company. Making the experience a little less peaceful but much more fun! 

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Tog dig! Jag lyckades fiska upp en fisk! Min syster lyckades fånga mig på film medan jag drog upp den. Jag fick riktig panik när jag märkte att abborren var jagad av en gädda som försökte ta den. Abborren var 38 cm men vägde bara 735 gram. 


Got ya! I got myself a big fish! I have a funny video of me catching the thing. The panic I got was real after I noticed that a massive pike tried to steal the perch from me. The perch was 38 cm long but was only 735 grams. 

Självklart var vi tvungna att köpa den töntiga bilden från utställningen 😂/and ofcourse we bought the silly picture after the Exhibition 😂

Självklart var vi tvungna att köpa den töntiga bilden från utställningen 😂/and ofcourse we bought the silly picture after the Exhibition 😂

Det blev bara en snabbvisit till stugan eftersom att vi had biljetter till Titanic Exhibition i Skellefteå. Denna utställning visar riktiga föremål som fanns ombord på antingen på Titanic eller systerskeppen Olympic och Britannia och historien bakom dom. 

Dom berättar även lite mindre kända historier om personer som fanns ombord på Titanic. Deras liv innan, på båten och efter olyckan (om dom överlevde). 

Det var också väldigt många historier om svenskar ombord på Titanics jungfruresa. Det var 123 svenskar ombord och 89 av dom dog under olyckan. Denna utställning gjorde att allt kändes mycket mer verkligt. 

Vi fick också se det rikiga halsbandet som i filmen kallades "Heart of the Ocean". Såklart var ju inte inte historien kring detta halsband samma som historien vi fick se i filmen. Halsbandet har egentligen inte ens samma namn. Det rikiga halsbandet kallas för "The love of the Sea" och ägdes av Kate Phillips. Kate och hennes "pojkvän" som var 20 år äldre än henne (hon var bara 19 år) bestämde sig att rymma till Amerika. Han ville starta ett nytt liv men sin nya kärlek och han lämnade därmed sin fru och sin dotter efter sig. 

Kate överlevde katastofen men Morley dog tyvärr när Titanic gick under. 


It was just a quick visit to the cottage as we had booked tickets to the Titanic Exhibition in Skellefteå. This is an Exhibition which show real artefacts that have been on-board either Titanic or its sister ships Olympic or Britannia and the story behind them. 

They also tell more unknown stories about individuals onboard Titanic. The life before, onboard and after (if they survived.) 

It was a lot of stories about Swedes that were onboard Titanic's maiden voyage. There were around 123 Swedes onboard and 89 of them died in the disaster. This Exhibition really made everything feel more real. 

We also saw the real 'Heart of the Ocean' even if the story surrounding the real neckless was not the same as the made up one in the movie, it did not even have the same name. It is called 'The love of the Sea'. The neckless was owned by a woman called Kate Phillips. She and her 'boyfriend' who was 20 years older than her (she was only 19 years old) decided to run away together to America. He wanted to start a new life with his new found love and left his wife and daughter behind. 

Kate survived the disaster but Morley sadly passed away during the tragic event. 

 

 

Out on the fields

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Systerkärlek på fälten back vårt hus, haha ❤️

Vi systrar har alltid gjort töntiga videos och tagit massor med bilder genom åren. Vi brukade göra stop motion filmer med hjälp av lego och Harry Potter parodier i vårt garage med vår webbkamera efter skolan när vi var små. Där hittade jag min passion, fast än den har skiftat genom åren.

Denna tradition av video och photoshoots är nått som vi alltid hållt fast vid. Vi har alltid gjort videos och photosessions varje gång vi ses. Och oftast mindre seriösa, haha! 

Igår innan vår lilla photoshoot så åkte jag, mamma och Gabriella in till stan. Gabriella behövde åka in till aktut tandläkaren på grund av hennes visdomstand och jag var tvungen att uppdatera lite detaljer på banken. Sexiga saker va? 😅😂

Sen var vi ju självklart tvungna att fika innan vi åke tillbaka till Lillpite igen. 

Efter middagen så åkte hela familjen till ett ställe som heter Bröstfallet. Det är ett vackert ställe med en stöm och små vattenfall. Men såklart så började att spöregna när vi kommer dit. Blev bara att ta lite bilder lite snabbt och sen snabbt in i bilen och åka hem igen.


Sister love on the fields behind our house, haha! ❤️

We sister have always been making silly videos and taking a lot of pictures. We used to make stop motion videos with lego and remake harry potter scenes in our garage with a webcam after school when we were kids. I found my passion there, even if it has gone and come back a few times during the years. 

But this tradition of video and photoshoots is something that we always kept over the years and we still do our photo and video session every time we see each other. However, mostly just silly stuff, haha! 

Yesterday before our little photoshoot me, mom and Gabriella visited the city centre. Gabriella needed to visit the emergency dentist for her wisdom tooth and I needed to renew some details at the bank. Sexy business huh? 😅😂

fika was, of course, a must before heading back home to Lillpite. 

After dinner, the whole family drove to a place called 'Bröstfallet' which translates to 'the breast fall'. This is a beautiful little stream/waterfall. But of course, it started pissing down when we arrived. Some quick pictures and back to the car and quick back home again.

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